Update

Life has been moving along slowly. I am so thankful to be in such a better place than I was last year. The past two weeks have been up and down with my mood. My anxiety has kicked in again and I had to start taking my medication for it. I was so upset because I have not needed my medication for at least 2 months. I struggled until I just couldn't do it anymore. My sleep has been up and down as well. I will have nights where I can not sleep at all, and then other nights absolutely no problems sleeping. I am currently having more nights away than asleep. Again I have had to take medication to sleep- which I haven't had to use any in quite a while. Friday night was scary. I was shaky all day and then all of the sudden couldn't drive and was panicking. I lost myself for a bit. I feared that the worst was coming. But it gradually subsided.

Kevin and I have been going to the gym 6 times a week in the morning. I have been going since January after my weight gain at Christmas. It is nice to get that extra time with him and just feels good. The obsession with weighing is mild. The worry about my body is mild. I am back down in weight to where I was in October, so that is good. I have had a few occasions where my head gets the best of me and I have made myself throw up or restricted. I started taking fat burners. I actually didn't know what they were initially. I thought I was taking a natural substance just for health. But now that I know, it has been really difficult not to abuse them. I have been doing well, but have had some mishaps. Overall I would say that my eating is still on the right track.

Things with Kevin are going really well. We have so much fun together. He has been going to church with me. I continue to pray for him that he will find Christ. I am so thankful that I am functioning pretty much at my baseline. Couldn't really ask for anything better!