Daily Questions

 I will begin to ask myself these questions each day to try to check in with myself and take time to see where I am at psychically, mentally, and emotionally. 

1. Is there anything bothering me from yesterday?

2. Do I feel resentment towards any person, place, or thing from yesterday?

3. Is there any dominating emotion helpd over from yesterday?

4. How am I feeling physically right now?

5. What do I need to take care of today?

6. Is there anything I am worried/anxious about today?

7. What can I do to bring myself closer to God today.

 

So I set out to answer these and am still stuck with what I am supposed to do with my answers.

 

1. Is there anything bothering me from yesterday? 

Yes, so now do I list these or just acknowledge that there is a yes??

I am bothered by what I did not get done. I am bothered by unfairness in relationships.

2. Do I feel resentment towards any person, place, or thing from yesterday?

yes, towards several people.

3. Is there any dominating emotion held over from yesterday? 

Yes, I feel anger, jealousy

4. How am I feeling physically right now?

My stomach hurts, I am anxious. I know today is going to be difficult. I want to sleep

5. What do I need to take care of today?

I need to shower and finish my notes from Friday

6. Is there anything I am worried/anxious about today?

yes, I know today will be challenging. Today is the day that I was adopted in 1981. It was a big celebration in my family, but mom was the one who always made a big deal about it. It was like a second birthday. My mom would always call, send flowers, and make sure I felt special on this day. She is gone. I know that no one else in my family will remember today or recognize it. I know this, so I have no expectation and no reason to think that anything will change. So I really have no reason to feel anything, but it does make me feel like a part of me is gone. Even though I am aware I feel anxious, angry, overwhelmed, and irritable. 

7. What can I do to bring myself closer to God today.

My intention was to be present during church and to really try to pay attention and not get distracted.  I decided to use a Psalms and enter "me" "my" where ever it stated your or you to make it personalized.  Psalms 121: 3-8. I got very distracted and had a hard time paying attention, but I did go through the Psalms.

³ He will not let MY foot slip—
    he who watches over ME will not slumber;
⁴ indeed, he who watches over ME
    will neither slumber nor sleep.

5The Lord watches over ME—
    the Lord is MY shade at your right hand;
⁶ the sun will not harm ME by day,
    nor the moon by night.

⁷ The Lord will keep ME from all harm—
    he will watch over MY life;
⁸ the Lord will watch over MY coming and going
    both now and forevermore.

 

So now what do I do. Sit here. Now I am aware of how I feel and I hate it. It makes me uncomfortable and wanting to make stupid decisions. I feel more depressed.