Fail

I am so ashamed of myself. I took the exam to become licensed and failed! I studied so much and was prepared. I missed it by 4 points. How can I be that dumb. I am in a profession that deals with each and every scenario on the exam, and I can's pass it?! I truly thought I was going to do so well. I hadn't told anyone I was taking it. I was confident that I would pass easily. But I didn't. It is embarrassing! I want so badly to just be done with this all. I had planned on calling my mom and friends and letting them know that it was official. I was ready to move on from my current job. With my license I could do so much more for better pay than working here. I had imagined where I would want to go and had hope. I shouldn't have had that high of hopes. I keep replaying it over and over and over again. I couldn't' have done something differently. I could have spent more time. I could have studied more. I am so disappointed in myself. I feel incredibly stupid! Why is this taking me so long? I want to disappear and pretend this never happened. I have never felt so dumb in my life!