ED days 9 and 10

Group last night and tonight were fare. Last night I was in and out of listening and participating was difficult. There was a dull in the room. I don't know that I really walked away with much. 

Tonight went a lot better. There were only 4 of us there. We all checked in and the theme coming up for everyone was having to make choices, fear in making the wring choice, choosing what others want instead of what we really want, and failure. The emotions and behaviors with myself as well as others are disappointment, failure, avoidance, easily hurt, low self worth, and in instances of making the "wrong" thing resulting in intense emotions that are too overwhelming to cope with. Al of this was very interesting and I am glad that I am not alone in this craziness with decisons.